miss class again ...........

i miss monday class again ...... already missed the same class for twice continuously !!!!! can't believe that im did so ..... not because of emergency or unavoidable things, but just because of my laziness .....

its reli feeling terrible for miss the class, especially for master studying ........ how can i keep on repeat the wrong things de ?? why i always messed up the things recently ??? why my attitude getting more n more negative going ???? why my thinking n my life become more n more upside down de ?????? what happen to me ?????

sorry for being such terrible attitude ..... sorry for being so troublesome ...... sorry for being unreasonable ....... sorry for mess up everythings ................... sorry

worried :(

just heard my mom said my sister need to do operation to take out the 'nana' from her face, its really scared me. she already suffer in sick for around one month and went see many doctors with different type of medicine, but still cant cure her flu. after that she went see specialist and doctor gave her some medicine, she need to back for checkup often. after taking such a long time of medicine, she went back to check today n been told by doctor that the 'nana' was spread widely n need to do operation so that can clear it n can send it for testing.
my mom worried so much, and since my sister have to back for checkup after the operation n she's working in kl so my mom decide to go kl look after her in hospital. she need to admin for around 2 days. after heard this new, really feel like want to cry. i feel bad that i can't do anythings here, i planning to go with my mom but can't. i just start school n its hard for me to skip so many classes. what to do ???? what should i do ??? i only can pray for everything go fine for my sister......................... mom said that its was a small operation, but just worried that the testing, worried that there will be some virus or whatever negative news from the 'nana' testing!!!!
please protect my sister from any bad things ...... keep her save ..... make sure she can recover as soon as possible ...................

i m become famous ......... in dreaming ..... haha

addiction to photo edit recently .... haha ....

below are the result of my addiction :P .....

you see how famous am , haha .... need ppl help to clean up my poster :P ...... and also promote my album ..... emm , wat my album name n content arr ??! ..... errr , i also dun realise when i get one ...... if i do , maybe there will be somethings about my life , sharing my sweety memories or maybe sharing my sweet sound ..... haha

magazine ??!! ..... haha .... honestly , i also not sure type of magazine i design :P .....

i guess la ..... just for my opinion la ..... maybe is about :-

VOGUE : fashion ..... the pic at cover i took in my friend's sister wedding dinner .... emm ,

can tat my wearing quite fashion also geh ..... haha

GLAMOUR : charming .... err , tis one arr ...... my look not too bad also la .... still can group as

'ok look' gua :P ......

ESQUIRE : dunno wat is tis la .... so just treat it as magazine which introduce nice places and

also introduce life =.= !!

wah ..... their drawing skill look so nice hoo ??! ......... i m look so 'real' =.= ......... haha .... maybe i m look too common , so tat easy to draf :P ..... haha ....

i had seen ppl copy their pic on a cup be4 la .... but ............... copy on car =.=" ...... errr , maybe i can try to get one later ............ haha ..... look ok waaa , so cute arr :P ..... right ?!

the guy keep looking at my pic wooo ..................................... =.= !! ..................... in reality , dunno whether is there any guys will do so also ??! ........

'support me ..... support me !!! ....... thanks you thanks you !! ........ love u all ya :P ...... ' .... hahaha

:'( ..... tat child not interest to look at my pic at all .... hais ...... luckly tat adults are interest !! ..... haha ..... it represent tat i m not attractive as for children but for adults .... haha ....

emm .... in reality arr ??! ...... i also not sure woo ..... but sometime children quite stick to me de wooo ...... maybe in reality is just opposite gua !!

i m so famous ooh ..... see tat two gals so addict to me :P ...... hahaha .....

all the pics above only can become real in dream ..... but still feel happy n excited when see my pics become the wallpaper , poster , become the star :P ...... hehe ..... in reality , all this cant be happen in my life , so just can dream loo =.=" ....... keke .....

working ? ... or ... master ?

or

headache !! still hav few months more to go to be graduate , hav to start thinking lots of things le , whether i should get a job , start to earn money ?? or ..... i should continue studying , taking master courses , satisfy my parent's wish ???

from begining , i din ever thinking about master coz i m not a smart person n i m not tat strong enough to be independent ... haha .... enter uni was a big surprise n luckiness in my life .... reli glad tat i din let down my family !!

my mom was the yongest in family n she enjoy studying lots but she born in old century where gals r not encourage to study ... she quick school after standard 6 n start working !! althought already long time passed , but my mom still wish to continue study !! she used to told us tat after we all graduate n can taking care ourself by having a permanent job , sudden level of income n hav a better life , she wants to go studying .... no matter is attend school , tuition or apply courses in college ..... hehe .... she reli like studying !!

becuase of this reason , my mom take so serious on our education .... althought she dunno lots but she ll spend out time accompany us doing homeworks everyday for sure n i used to feel bad n scare her lots when i m still small , especially when the result is out .... haha .... once we get too bad result or fail some subject , we not dare to show her the paper , we just try to get some excuse or hiding the exam paper so that won't get scolded .... hahahaha .... everytime thinks back all this children time reli feel so funny ..... hahahaha .... n i also realise that i m not a good gal :P .... haha .... but .... i reli hav to say 'thank you , mummy' , without her , i reli dunno wat i ll turn to be .... n sure i can't be who i m today ... hehe !!

after my secondary school , my mom reli does changes alot !! she start to let us free , lets us do whatever we want as long as she could affort for us .... hehe .... can't denied that i m quite a luckly children , my parents reli sayang us much , they ll try to fulfill our requirement n sometime spoilts us even .... haha .... so sometime we also ll bully them de .... haha :P .... (as wat i said above , i m not a good gals arr :P ) but now , i m big gal enough liao .... hav to think for others , caring other ppl's feeling n almost its the time for me to take care my parent liao !! .... hehe .... as wat my parent's wish , i finish (almost la) my degree .... but .... ppl won't be satified de ... as my mom .... haha .... after i finish my degree , she ask me take master pula =.=" ?? ! ......

master ..... master ..... quite a heavy n burden word for me arr .... 'mom , i m not tat smart la , how u want me to hav master ooh ??' .... hais !! .... headache .... headache .... headache ..... what should i do ?? .... i try to get opinion from my lecturer , prof. encourage me to take but sad that prof. din explain much for me ..... maybe prof. too expert so he just trying to explain me how was the current economic growth .... haha .... its too deep for me to understand la !! .... i try to ask opinion from friends , most of them feel that should start working to gain working experience 1st then oni take master !! .... i try get opinion from my housemate , they said study master hav to be independent de n reli hav to prepare myself to study de !! ....

haiz ..... dunno arr .... maybe i should hav some more times to think think ..... maye i should try to kacau few more lecturers to ask for suggestion !! hehe !! .... so .... just think think la .... hope can make decision soon la .... dun want hold it for too long le ... no time le ....

tired ...

finish holiday already, back to school life again .... time pass so soon, it was my final sem now. still remember when i just reach penang, i reli hope i can be graduate as soon as possible .... but now ... just hope the time won't pass so soon, still hope can be a student more longer, scare to be graduate !!

this sem quite a free sem for me coz i just left about 9 credict hours .... i register 2 major courses n one ko-k .... oni need to attend about one class per day .... haha !! at begining, thought want to take extra credict so that can learn more n will not be too free in penang de but now reli feel luckly for din doing so .... althought i registered for 2 courses but its already suffer me lots .... maybe i m still not get used wif the lesson, still in holiday mood, so being abit slow in following the lecture @_@ ....

besides, feel pressure wif course works also .... can't get idea how to finish my works !! trying hard to understand them but ... seen like not reli works for me .... 'they' still very far from me n just look like stranger for me !! .... hais .... what to do ?! .... have to put more effort loo .... disturb my lecturer more often loo .... try more loo .... do more loo .... revision more loo .................... headache !!

feel so tired n listless .... no matter take how long rest also not enough ===> lazy ?! .... maybe gua !! just do not feel like want to do anythings, just wish can stay at home .... in school also do not feel like want to talk, just wish can be silent de ...... but .... over silent ll bring to be alone n being ignored !!

emm ... i think its just a temporary downcast period .... will end soon de .... just have to giving sometime for me to adjust my mood n also get used wif my final sem's mood .... hehe .... i'll be fine soon .... sure !! i'll recover soon .... being normal n energies de .... hehe !!

gambateh desu ....