care + care + ... = pressure + burden

althought i m not borned in rich family but my life are quite easy ..... i no need to worry about eat, wear, working, life, money ..... my parent'll handle all of tat .... my parent are easy to get satisfaction ..... they din ask anythings from 4 of us , they just wish tat we can concentrate on our life --> study hard, so can get better life later !! no matter wat we ask for (money to buy references book, stationery, tution, class trip, delicious meal .....) , no matter how hard their life are at tat time, they also ll try their best to fulfill our required and they didn't ever complaint, either !!

my friends all so jealous n feel happy tat i having such good parent ..... i also din deny tat i m living in such happy life !!! but as for me, sometime too much care n love my parent give, ll become pressure n burden for us without noticed !!! the y treat us so well until we can't let ourself to fail in life or even being not success coz we dun want to let them down or let them disapointed, althought they din ask us for being the best !!

sometime we can't do whatever we want because of their much much much care n love. they too protect us, worried tat we'll getting hurt in life until made us feel 'scare' n 'suffer' for tat !! .... i knew tat they just we live without any obstacle, but we also hav ourown opinion n idea, we also hav the need to try doing anythings to train ourself, we also wish to hav ourown way in life !!

in chinese, tat's "hav child aged 100 years old, worried 99 years" ..... its really truth !! no matter how the child is, they also won't give up the child n give all the best to the child !!

maybe i should be glad of having so much care + love from my parent, without tat, i dun think tat i can't have such happy life !! althought there are also stress, but maybe it ll become a tool which can encourage me to success in future life ..... i'll apprecaite wat they give n wat they did for us, n try my best to make them proud of me !!

firework ..... 2008

during chinese new year, my grandma's neighbour who from cameron highland share their fireworks with us ...... it is the 1st time i get chance to see the firework from so near ..... its really so excited, amazing n enjoying ......
besides, tis year ipoh padang had an new year event which organised by party 'ma hua' ..... tis event quite costly cz they import the fireworks from China ......

new year .....

i cut a new hair style for new year --> short hair ..... at begining, feel so uncomfortable wif short hair n also regret for it ..... but after a few weeks pass, i feel so comfortable wif my short hair now, expecially when in hot weather !! .....

in this new year, i try to make some differences ..... i ll start make-up n wear a bit nicer (other than jean n t-shirt la!) ...... althought not very pretty la, but i think not too bad also la .... haha !!

tis is my "tang di" --> kit kit ...... does he look so cute !! ...... hehe ....

tis is my "tang mei" --> kah mun ..... many ppl said we look alike, really kah ?! .... maybe she quite stick on me gua n its not bad to look like me arr .... althought i'm just a little little bit fat la, but overall quite cute also la ..... keke .... @@ !!

she is my another "tang mei" --> esther ...... she quite tall n slim ..... hehe !!

my lovely mom ..... she is so pretty, right ?! .... hehe !!

after let go .....

maybe its hard to forget sth or someone .... but once u did , there ll be sunny day waiting for u ..... ;)
before tis , i feel so hard to let go .... i try hard but not success ..... i ask myself tat why should i let go ?! .... why can't i just keep it in heart ?! ..... n even try to give up ..... hehe .....
few days after tat sad incident , after i get hurt deeply .... i now really success to let go .....
i dunno how to describe my feeling now ..... so relax n happy ..... no need worry tat he'll hurt me anymore ..... wat he does also won't bordering me ..... really happy for tat !!

valentine's present ....

can't believe tat i'll receive such a 'special' valentine's present !! i din ever think tis will happen on me ...... i thought u treat me as friend n appreciate me tis friend but ........ i m wrong ..... definitely wrong wrong wrong !!! .....

u asked me not to msg u again .... u feel tat because of me argue wif ur gf is not worth !!!!! ....... i really thought tat i m in dreaming n u din mean to say so ...... i m really stupid ..... i not even accept the fact ...... how can i accept tat someone who treat me so well n said he appreciate me so much before ll said so to me now !!! .......

honestly ...... it really make me feel so down n i cry for tat ..... i m always waiting for the day tat i can let u out of my heart .... n now , the day has come !!

thanks for hurt me deeply !!! ....... thanks for wake me up cruelly !! ....... its really work ..... my heart is in pain ...... but i no after all the pain , sure i can let u go forever without any doubt !!! ....... sooner or later , u ll out of my mind !!! ......

i think tis is the special n effective present i ever receive !! .......... start from today , i ll delete all things regarded on u out of my mind n tomorrow ll be the new day ....... thanks for giving me new life without u ...... not even as a friend as u request !!!

anyway .... still wish u all the best n thanks for giving me such happy n unhappy experience !!! ......